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It’s not you, it’s me

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This new story is tripping me the fuck up. It’s making me want to jump out of my own skin because I feel it just beneath the surface but I can’t pull it out just yet. I know when I do, it’s going to be fucking amazing, but for now it’s the biggest pain in my ass.

So for the past few days I’ve been trying to figure my shit out. I watched two videos on writers block and I’m going to tell you what they said and why I think they’re wrong.

Every writer gets stuck. Every single one. And every single one deals with it differently.

I’ve talked about this in the past (or at least I think I have) where there was an author who I looked up to who believed you can’t wait for inspiration, you just have to do it. Maybe this is where I differ from people because I watched a video where the writer said the same thing and I think that’s completely outrageous. I’ve been sitting behind my computer for hours just thinking. Just trying to figure out what exactly I want my story to be and I’ve tried writing it hundreds of times, but each time I feel deep in my gut it’s not right. I had the very same feeling with the Storm Trilogy except opposite.

I knew what was supposed to happen like someone had put the thought in my head and it was my job to write it. But with this story it’s taking longer. If I force myself to write it feel like I’m standing in front of a chalk board with a nail as I etch words into it. It’s not fun and no one likes it. So I don’t completely understand where this idea comes from.

If I don’t want to write it, you sure as hell aren’t going to want to read it.

The next thing I noticed is that people believe you are your own block which I agree with to a point. I think writers put a lot of pressure on themselves to be perfect and if you aren’t writing the best thing in the world you believe you shouldn’t be writing.

BUT

When I’m sitting here trying to write this new stuff I’m constipated. Time passes and I think to myself maybe I just can’t write anymore. Maybe they’re write and it’s me. But then two seconds later I force myself to do a writing exercise that had nothing to do with anything and I’ve written 500 words without blinking.

So I don’t know what it is.

Is the block you? Is it inspiration? Is it plot? Is it laziness?

I think every case is different. I don’t know if there is a cure because I haven’t found mine yet.

What I do know is that listening to everyone else’s advise might not help YOU. When people ask me about writers block I literally don’t have an answer or at least not the one you’re looking for. The one thing I know, is that the worst part about being a writing is not being able to write. I could tell you to focus on another project (which I’ve tried to do myself) but when it comes down to it that might not help.

So, to my aspiring writers/authors/human beings be patient. And breathe. Don’t forget to breathe.

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